Water is suppose to be a time to nourish, a way to replenish and recover from the heat accompanying Fire. For me, I think that the floating candles we used at our last Circle was indicative of how that particular time would go for me. Simply floating along awaiting Earth to come back around. Relaxation in preparation for the stress, aggravation, frustration and general malaise that comes along with this time of year.
This is the first elemental transition I spent without my Full Circle family. I actually find it a bit sad, and miss you all terribly, but more so with the lack of our monthly gathering. Earth rules over introspection, and of that, I feel I have done more than my fair share. This little family we have established, while its true that I’m still not 100% confident or self-assure when asked to call a quarter, I have never felt more myself, more accepted for who I am, and I’ve never seen more unconditional love than while I’ve had the privilege to be a part of it. As in my last post about what this year has brought in relation to Christmas and my personal life, I’m most likely going to be dealing with this depression for some time, but at least with my family, I know I can get through it. How does that relate to Earth? Earth is the Mother, from which we all have come. Mother means compassion, caring, where you come from, your origins, your base. What keeps you stable, grounded, until Air returns and lifts you back up again. Mother is, in many cases, the basis around which the family is formed. Depending on your particular belief, man is created of the earth, and upon death, is returned to it.
So, as I continue plodding along, I am determined to carry with me not only the lessons Earth has to bring, but also the lessons learned from Air, Fire and Water from this past year’s Element Walk. While I might at times feel like there literally is no way back into the light, it cannot remain dark forever. I will not always feel like this, and at some point in the future, I will be reunited with my Full Circle family. In the meantime, I shall be as the Earth. Solid, strong, unmovable. Love and light to you all!