As indicated under my lil picture there on the right, I finally got just about everything moved over from the wix pages. I'm not sure that I have everything laid out as it's going to end up being, but its a start at least.
I came across a blurb of info a little bit ago and figured that now is as good a time as any to introduce it.
Morihei Ueshiba was the founder of Aikido, which can be translated as "The Art of Peace." Morihei Ueshiba is referred to by the practitioners of Aikido as O-Sensei, "The Great Teacher". The following quotations from the Art of Peace have been compiled from O-Sensei's collected talks, poems, and calligraphy, and from oral tradition. (Taken from: http://omlc.ogi.edu/aikido/talk/osensei/artofpeace/ )
This is something that I think is pretty interesting. I have always made it a point to be very clear that I don't prescribe to any one given tradition, as there are just too many different (yet surprisingly similar) belief systems around. When it comes to fostering inner peace, I tend towards more Asian belief systems.. perhaps one of these days I'll figure out why.
Regardless, the first of these quotes is as follows:
The Art of Peace begins with you. Work on yourself and your appointed task in the Art of Peace. Everyone has a spirit that can be refined, a body that can be trained in some manner, a suitable path to follow. You are here for no other purpose than to realize your inner divinity and manifest your innate enlightenment. Foster peace in your own life and then apply the Art to all that you encounter.
I've seen this firsthand. The Law of Attraction is in full swing lately, the more open I am about what I think, what I believe in, etc, the more it seems to be accepted, even encouraged!
Exactly one year ago today, I spoke of depression. I even re-read over what I had posted and I really am surprised at the change in just a year's time. This year has held alot of different experiences, growth, and I really am proud of how far I've come. Much of it is facing things head on. Other aspects which I can't overlook is this overwhelming sense of being grounded.. knowing more about where and what, as well as who, I come from plays much into that. The realization that I've worn the weight of keeping up the holiday traditions almost singlehandedly for the past 20 years, and feeling that for the first time since my grandparents passed on, that they are closer to me now, their spirits are with me... These things have made a huge difference in how I've approached the holidays this year. I actually looked forward to it, instead of dreading it as I usually do.
So now that I've rambled (I've had only a couple hours of sleep, I'm not sure there's even any linear coherency to it!) The point of sharing the link and the quote: I've seen on several wiccan sites where there's mention of a "year and a day" study/lesson plan sort of thing. I think that I've reached a point where I'm ready for a more structured approach to learning all that I've wanted to. I'm thinking lessons contained in the Art of Peace would be a good way to get that started...not necessarily following a year and a day plan or anything, just something more structured, where there's some sort of daily observance/lesson involved. And so I think that as I go along with this, maybe I'll share insights and whatnot, depending on how it goes. Knowing me, I'll do alright for a month or three and get distracted!(And in my head I hear the old saying... "The road to hell is paved with good intentions"... well...I've got a pretty good freeway going then!!)
This year seems to be a big difference compared to last year.
This time last year, I was snarling and muttering at every mention of the holidays. This year, I’ve found myself looking forward to baking things.. decorating the tree (which is actually standing in the living room.. SHOCK!), and looking forward to Christmas dinner. I’m not 100% sure what’s made the difference. Maybe living a bit differently, with a bit of a different mindframe than I’ve done in years past. Who knows.
Unfortunately, until today there was still a bit of a dark cloud hanging over me. It began simply enough, with a comment placed on facebook by a childhood friend..someone I knew particularly well growing up. It got worse after my mother proceeded to respond to the comment… and worse still when this “friend” proceeded to speak to my mother in ways that I wouldn’t tolerate out of my own kids let alone someone who isn’t even blood. To say the least, before I took it a step further, I both deleted and blocked this person. I’m not especially happy with myself, but it had to be done.
Bare with me, there is a point to this. I took it a step further and proceeded to remove another 152 people. Some were inactive/deactivated accounts, but most of them were active. I am now down to a slim, svelte 107 friends. And I feel great. Wish I’d done it sooner. I was, over the last few days, contemplating giving up facebook altogether, but there are alot of people I would have no contact with otherwise. SO… the rules were.. If we’ve conversed over the last 6 months, they get to stay. There is literally no point in having that many people on a friends list if you never speak to them. Sure, it sucks to cut off contact with someone you grew up with, but the realization here is that there comes a point when you have to face the fact that that person is not who you thought they were… and you aren’t who you once were either.
There are many ways to cleanse the “icky” parts of your life, to make it more liveable. If it no longer serves to put happiness and abundance in your life, it needs to go. We get to be entirely too sentimental, holding onto things that once were, simply because they once made us happy. This is just the first real step I’m making towards clearing out the “icky”.
On another note entirely… is it just me, or has the energy in the air changed lately?
I could start this out similar to an AA meeting “Hi I’m Laury/Morgana, and I am a geek”. But geek does not even begin to cover it. I’ve been forced over the past months to accept that I am, in fact, a nerd. And I’m ok with it, I’m embracing it. Its just one of the things that makes me “me”. I’ve traveled a long path to find where I belong in this world, “the meaning of it all”. Whether I’ll ever reach that point is a mystery. In the meantime, I play the following roles: mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, geek, nerd, gamer girl, over-thinker. There are reasons I am referred to as So-Crates and Padawan. While there are things I am knowledgeable about, there are things that I have yet to learn. In the end, that’s all life is about..